oh and i'm a cancer too.

What's happening is this.....I know a lot of people......I am often very busy.....I do organize some of our events for our poi folks.......I do take over people's shift and help them out at the theater job......I do more than my fair share at my first job.......and I am just being stepped on in literally everything and everywhere. I offer a lot and don't ask for anything and yet never really got anything in return. Most people find me to be very pleasant and so many people think I am just a happy person and yet, I'm not. Every now and then, I'll get someone that says I am a loner. So not true. In fact, I get offended by that.

I really do feel as if I am unnoticed or unappreciated in this world. For example: if I am talking to one guy and flirting with him, and then he's off talking to someone else and I'm conversing with someone else, the minute I go back to that guy, all the other guys will say to him, go for her, go for the other girl right in front of me. So that's a bit scornful. I have a co-worker who doesn't think I deserve to have a b/f let alone a hubby. So that hurts. I'm really being overlooked. And everyone just pats me on the head like, awww....you're cute. But you don't deserve anything. And that has been coming up lately and it's pissing the living shit out of me to a point that all the anger I can hold inside is now surfacing and coming out. It's not a pretty sight.

Anyways, I think it's not fair to say that I am an empty person. I know that none of you know me at all and is hard to suggest advice to people you don't know and online for that matter. But I am not empty. In fact, I'm overflowing and with no real place to disperse my energy to. Maybe I'm reading it wrong or this is the cancer sign in me where I get super sensitive. But I really don't like that "I am empty" kind of suggestion and I can't help to feel that maybe I am once again being misunderstood. I'm not angry, I actually feel better today, but a bit saddened now. ok? If there's something that I misunderstood, please let me know and help me to clarify some of the comments. ok? Thanks so much.

Oh, since you are a catalyst for love curses then, well, I think you qualify, right? Besides, there is no love cursed anonymous...only synonymous...maybe not in all cases...but it does often take two (or more) to tangle. In this, we may well be homologs. Simpatico?